waah.
back to reality after 4 days off.
went to my counsin evan's wedding in reading pennsylvania this weekend. i had a good time with my parents, but am totally drained from all the excitement (read: many long hours in the car). sooo....i am posting this to remind myself to update this page and tell you all about my exploits around eastern pa, but for now....watching the tonight show (monday is headlines night...the only worthwhile 10 minutes of the show all week :) and then....bedtime. ah. smiling just thinking about it.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Sunday, May 17, 2009
benchpress. some thoughts. and what i'll be doing august 1.
i don't want to brag, friends. but.
i have been an exceedingly good student so far, and have read every single page of required reading for my classes. i can't tell my friends in class because they'd call me a suck-up or dork or something. which is actually not cool and getting really old, since we're adults in grad school. we're paying well over $100 for each and every class we attend, so it really only makes sense to do the work required. and i feel like i wasted several thousand dollars last semester, because i definitely did the bare minimum for a class or two. yeah, definitely two. anyway, i don't know how i got the dubious honor of being known as an overachiever. if they think this is overacheiving, they should've seen me in undergrad. because i am that cool.
ok, i'm going to get on my soapbox and vent a little. is that ok? thanks.
first, i am definitely guilty of doing the same thing i'm about to gripe about. which makes me a supremo-hypocrite, but i have acknowledged my ways and am actively working toward changing them. anyway.
here's what bugs me. all of us who are taking a full load this semester are feeling like there's a lot required in pretty much every single class. it's not totally ridiculous, but it will definitely be a considerable portion of our time each week for the next two and a half months. some of us are taking more than others, and most of us have at least one or two other major things going on in our lives besides school (eg, work, moving, mission trips, etc). so what bugs me is when people talk about all their extra responsibilities as if they are so much harder to handle than everyone else's. as if no one else could possibly understand what they're going through because their lives are that much harder (i do this too! not cool!!!). but here's the thing...most people fill their time to the max of what they can handle. (which is honestly not necessarily a good thing.) most of us aren't actually sitting around doing nothing in our free time. and if we have free time, it may just be intentional and due to the recognition that down time actually makes you busy time more productive and meaningful. i feel like there's an unspoken contest to see who has the most going on in their lives right now, and like i said before, i get sucked into it to. and i'm not even one of the busiest people i know. i think we brag about how much we have on our plate for a couple reasons. here's why i do it...it makes my life seem more meaningful, and it gives me an excuse if i don't succeed. i am ashamed to admit this, but i think its true. for me anyway.
i am so totally tired of trying to do more and more and more. the pressure is actually rather tremendous. i catch myself placing value on being involved in as much as i possibly can, almost afraid of a day off. as if my schedule gives my life meaning. as if a day of rest is something to be feared. i was talking to a good friend last week, and we were discussing "the rat race"... how our generation is pressured to do more and more and more, all so we can acquire more and more and more. and we will certainly pass this down to our children unless they have the wisdom early on and see the error of that kind of life.
so i'm left asking myself if what i'm doing TODAY is valuable. to some extent, my busy-ness and stress are necessary evils right now...must get through the next 11 months of school so i can enter the vocation where i feel led. however, i also realize that the craziness must end soon because it's at the expense of meaningful relationships and service to others. it's so easy to say this as a day is drawing to an end, and i think it's an entirely different story each morning...to wake up determined to do what (and only that) which is meaningful...and to rest well... in ways that fulfill and revive.
i apologize. i almost erased this, but it's true to where i am mentally and emotionally right now. writing it down diffuses my frustrations. and with that....it's a gorgeous evening. time for a long, slow run alone with my thoughts and some sweet music.
OH! almost forgot...did i tell you all my happy news? i'm moving at the beginning of august! super excited to be living in a real neighborhood in a house with 2 other girls. have only met one of them so far, but she's quality and fun and classy, so i think it's going to be good. the house is older and has some quirks that give it character (but to all you who frequented 1110 main aka "party central," the bathroom is lots bigger and there's no plaid wallpaper or elf doors. sorry.)
i'm also goign to have to give away about half my wardrobe because the closets are TINY. that will be good for me.
HOWEVER. i've have some wonderful roommates over the years. they've been so good, in fact, that i have hesitated even considering doing the roommate thing because i just can't imagine that they'd be as great at the past few, who have been huge blessings and exactly what i've needed. so these new ones have some big shoes to fill. little do they know :) no pressure...
i have been an exceedingly good student so far, and have read every single page of required reading for my classes. i can't tell my friends in class because they'd call me a suck-up or dork or something. which is actually not cool and getting really old, since we're adults in grad school. we're paying well over $100 for each and every class we attend, so it really only makes sense to do the work required. and i feel like i wasted several thousand dollars last semester, because i definitely did the bare minimum for a class or two. yeah, definitely two. anyway, i don't know how i got the dubious honor of being known as an overachiever. if they think this is overacheiving, they should've seen me in undergrad. because i am that cool.
ok, i'm going to get on my soapbox and vent a little. is that ok? thanks.
first, i am definitely guilty of doing the same thing i'm about to gripe about. which makes me a supremo-hypocrite, but i have acknowledged my ways and am actively working toward changing them. anyway.
here's what bugs me. all of us who are taking a full load this semester are feeling like there's a lot required in pretty much every single class. it's not totally ridiculous, but it will definitely be a considerable portion of our time each week for the next two and a half months. some of us are taking more than others, and most of us have at least one or two other major things going on in our lives besides school (eg, work, moving, mission trips, etc). so what bugs me is when people talk about all their extra responsibilities as if they are so much harder to handle than everyone else's. as if no one else could possibly understand what they're going through because their lives are that much harder (i do this too! not cool!!!). but here's the thing...most people fill their time to the max of what they can handle. (which is honestly not necessarily a good thing.) most of us aren't actually sitting around doing nothing in our free time. and if we have free time, it may just be intentional and due to the recognition that down time actually makes you busy time more productive and meaningful. i feel like there's an unspoken contest to see who has the most going on in their lives right now, and like i said before, i get sucked into it to. and i'm not even one of the busiest people i know. i think we brag about how much we have on our plate for a couple reasons. here's why i do it...it makes my life seem more meaningful, and it gives me an excuse if i don't succeed. i am ashamed to admit this, but i think its true. for me anyway.
i am so totally tired of trying to do more and more and more. the pressure is actually rather tremendous. i catch myself placing value on being involved in as much as i possibly can, almost afraid of a day off. as if my schedule gives my life meaning. as if a day of rest is something to be feared. i was talking to a good friend last week, and we were discussing "the rat race"... how our generation is pressured to do more and more and more, all so we can acquire more and more and more. and we will certainly pass this down to our children unless they have the wisdom early on and see the error of that kind of life.
so i'm left asking myself if what i'm doing TODAY is valuable. to some extent, my busy-ness and stress are necessary evils right now...must get through the next 11 months of school so i can enter the vocation where i feel led. however, i also realize that the craziness must end soon because it's at the expense of meaningful relationships and service to others. it's so easy to say this as a day is drawing to an end, and i think it's an entirely different story each morning...to wake up determined to do what (and only that) which is meaningful...and to rest well... in ways that fulfill and revive.
i apologize. i almost erased this, but it's true to where i am mentally and emotionally right now. writing it down diffuses my frustrations. and with that....it's a gorgeous evening. time for a long, slow run alone with my thoughts and some sweet music.
OH! almost forgot...did i tell you all my happy news? i'm moving at the beginning of august! super excited to be living in a real neighborhood in a house with 2 other girls. have only met one of them so far, but she's quality and fun and classy, so i think it's going to be good. the house is older and has some quirks that give it character (but to all you who frequented 1110 main aka "party central," the bathroom is lots bigger and there's no plaid wallpaper or elf doors. sorry.)
i'm also goign to have to give away about half my wardrobe because the closets are TINY. that will be good for me.
HOWEVER. i've have some wonderful roommates over the years. they've been so good, in fact, that i have hesitated even considering doing the roommate thing because i just can't imagine that they'd be as great at the past few, who have been huge blessings and exactly what i've needed. so these new ones have some big shoes to fill. little do they know :) no pressure...
Friday, May 15, 2009
epiphany.
so i kept hearing all about the star trek movie coming out...heard the comedians make fun of it, heard that people were dressing up and lining up to see it...anyway, the whole time i was thinking "i thought all the star trek movies had already been made." so it didn't make sense that there was another one. well, tonight i got to thinking and all of a sudden realized that i was thinking of star WARS, not star TREK. i ALWAYS get those mixed up. some people really really get into star wars, too.
when i was in high school, i watched space balls at aaron vano's house. about halfway through the movie, i said, "WAIT. guys, did you ever realize that this is kind of like star wars." aaaand i will never live that down.
along those lines, i was nearing the end of my high school career before i realized that TP-in stands for toilet-papering. always thought it stood for teepees, as in the native american dwelling. sometimes it takes me a while, but i'll get there, eventually.
ok, one more thing. there's a car dealer here in indy who sells mercurys. only he pronounces it merc-uh-ry instead of merc-yoo-ry. kind of makes me laugh every time i hear it.
sweet dreams, my friends. i'm getting in my pajamas, finding a good book. (probably the DSM--awesome) and going to BED :)
when i was in high school, i watched space balls at aaron vano's house. about halfway through the movie, i said, "WAIT. guys, did you ever realize that this is kind of like star wars." aaaand i will never live that down.
along those lines, i was nearing the end of my high school career before i realized that TP-in stands for toilet-papering. always thought it stood for teepees, as in the native american dwelling. sometimes it takes me a while, but i'll get there, eventually.
ok, one more thing. there's a car dealer here in indy who sells mercurys. only he pronounces it merc-uh-ry instead of merc-yoo-ry. kind of makes me laugh every time i hear it.
sweet dreams, my friends. i'm getting in my pajamas, finding a good book. (probably the DSM--awesome) and going to BED :)
Thursday, May 14, 2009
cannot compartmentalize
looong day at iwu (eye'-woooo)...almost 10 hours there with just a little panera break for lunch and friends.
soo i saw two more clients (thanks for the encouraging phone calls, friends!) and these two were a little more involved than the two from yesterday (which seems like soooo much longer than a day ago). i'm getting over being the least bit nervous about meeting clients, but i feel like there are actual expectations from here on out. like, after one or two sessions, in my mind, there should be some progress made, even though i know that it's not that simple. at all.
anyway, it was sunny and pretty tonight, so i went for a walk after i returned home utterly exhausted. my ipod was out of juice, so i was resigned to my own thoughts...which drifted toward what i should have done better today. it's very hard to will yourself to not think about something, but i know it's best to leave work and school at work and school (which in my case is the same place, which is good. makes things easier.)
i am now going to clean my apartment up, turn on the tv for a while, unwind, most likely fall asleep on the couch and wake up at 2 am...stumble my way to bed, and wake up before the morning light to get ready to sub. i will return home even more tired than before....work out, din din with kelly and then an EARLY bedtime because i'm running on saturday morning. and then studying ALL DAY. and then going to an indians game. if it doesn't rain.
and there you have it. my next 48 hours in a nutshell.
fascinating, i know.
soo i saw two more clients (thanks for the encouraging phone calls, friends!) and these two were a little more involved than the two from yesterday (which seems like soooo much longer than a day ago). i'm getting over being the least bit nervous about meeting clients, but i feel like there are actual expectations from here on out. like, after one or two sessions, in my mind, there should be some progress made, even though i know that it's not that simple. at all.
anyway, it was sunny and pretty tonight, so i went for a walk after i returned home utterly exhausted. my ipod was out of juice, so i was resigned to my own thoughts...which drifted toward what i should have done better today. it's very hard to will yourself to not think about something, but i know it's best to leave work and school at work and school (which in my case is the same place, which is good. makes things easier.)
i am now going to clean my apartment up, turn on the tv for a while, unwind, most likely fall asleep on the couch and wake up at 2 am...stumble my way to bed, and wake up before the morning light to get ready to sub. i will return home even more tired than before....work out, din din with kelly and then an EARLY bedtime because i'm running on saturday morning. and then studying ALL DAY. and then going to an indians game. if it doesn't rain.
and there you have it. my next 48 hours in a nutshell.
fascinating, i know.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
big day. but my heart is with some other special kids today...
i saw my very first clients today. this is huge, because it was the first day i got to do what i'm actually studying to do. real people with real problems. no more slap happy role-playing with allison and kristina. don't get wrong, those were life-changing and all ("what i'm hearing you say is you need a support system....like a running club"...true story. i actually joined a running club at allison's advice during a fake counseling session for one of our classes. the girls was made to be a counselor :) however, this was my first session, alone. with a client. who needs help. anyway, it was a good first time experience, but it left me exhausted. i trust that it will get easier, and i will be able to roll with it a little more. and still have something leftover afterwards.
also started psychopathology and am actually looking forward to it. i think we're going to learn tons, and i have a renewed resolve to make the most of each class. i think i slacked off too much last semester and, i am honestly ashamed to say, slid by wiht the bare minimum in a class or two. there were reasons, but they're not good ones.
a friend asked me to burn a copy of the alison krauss/gillian welch version of "i'll fly away." which the prompted me to dig out some nickel creek. which i am now OBSESSED with. like, can't stop listening to it. i wonder if my brother will find this music choice acceptable. doubtful.
i mustered up enough willpower to drag my sorry self down tot he gym for 30 minutes tonight. and THEN i dropped my key in the grass. in the dark. awesome. so i borrowed a flashlight from a neighbor and rooted around the lawn on my hands a knees for what felt like 10 minutes. it was probably more liek 2 and a half. but it was an event. what a life i lead sometimes.
ok, now bear with me.
today was the last day for gcs seniors...when i was teaching the last day for seniors was always a bittersweet kind of day. but, these kids were just entering 9th grade when i first met and taught them. i cannot believe they are done. that class always held a very special place in my heart, so its sad to think they're moving on into the world. i am so so excited for them, because i remember how wide open the world felt when i graduated. but in a sense, they're still that goofy class i had my first year. don't get me wrong, they have grown tremendously. i am so proud of the people they have become, but it is bittersweet to think that they have accomplished all they could at grace, and are now ready for the next stage of life. i will always remember the funny things they said, how they were going to buy me a pair of etnies (as if i'd ever wear them...but it never happened) how i told zach and ronald i'd give them an A in science for the rest of their high school careers if they build a working 100-yard teeter totter (and they acutlaly thought it might work), how they NEVER let me live down the fact that we didn't do rube goldberg projects their freshman year, singing the 12 cranial nerve song with then 2 years in a row, the molympics (on october 23 hehe), how they used to beg me to call my brother during class because they thought he was hilarious even having never met him, how i'd look up, and the whole class would be smiling at some inside joke they were playing on me, how they talked about their previous science teacher mr faust (to the point where there was a class rule that they could only say his name twice per day!), girl talk time (gtt) with the girls, and how the boys all wrote me goodbye letters when i told them i was moving and wouldn't be around their senior year. i saved those, and the letters from the girls as well in my "never ever ever throw away" box.
i clearly remember telling them last may that i'd be going to grad school and not returning to grace, and looked up from the letter i was reading from, to see a room full of teary eyes. i completely lost it, because they were (and still are) such a blessing in my life. not a day went by that i didn't laugh with that class, and not a day goes by now that i don't miss teaching. . i loved being their teacher, i miss seeing them and laughing with them every day, and i wish them all the best. so alli, kristyn, kristen, mel, sarah, steph, jess, ron, easton, nate, rick, if you happen upon this and read it, know that i have complete confidence that God will use you to do great things in this life...and i'll be cheering you on! i love you all.
and....tears....
also started psychopathology and am actually looking forward to it. i think we're going to learn tons, and i have a renewed resolve to make the most of each class. i think i slacked off too much last semester and, i am honestly ashamed to say, slid by wiht the bare minimum in a class or two. there were reasons, but they're not good ones.
a friend asked me to burn a copy of the alison krauss/gillian welch version of "i'll fly away." which the prompted me to dig out some nickel creek. which i am now OBSESSED with. like, can't stop listening to it. i wonder if my brother will find this music choice acceptable. doubtful.
i mustered up enough willpower to drag my sorry self down tot he gym for 30 minutes tonight. and THEN i dropped my key in the grass. in the dark. awesome. so i borrowed a flashlight from a neighbor and rooted around the lawn on my hands a knees for what felt like 10 minutes. it was probably more liek 2 and a half. but it was an event. what a life i lead sometimes.
ok, now bear with me.
today was the last day for gcs seniors...when i was teaching the last day for seniors was always a bittersweet kind of day. but, these kids were just entering 9th grade when i first met and taught them. i cannot believe they are done. that class always held a very special place in my heart, so its sad to think they're moving on into the world. i am so so excited for them, because i remember how wide open the world felt when i graduated. but in a sense, they're still that goofy class i had my first year. don't get me wrong, they have grown tremendously. i am so proud of the people they have become, but it is bittersweet to think that they have accomplished all they could at grace, and are now ready for the next stage of life. i will always remember the funny things they said, how they were going to buy me a pair of etnies (as if i'd ever wear them...but it never happened) how i told zach and ronald i'd give them an A in science for the rest of their high school careers if they build a working 100-yard teeter totter (and they acutlaly thought it might work), how they NEVER let me live down the fact that we didn't do rube goldberg projects their freshman year, singing the 12 cranial nerve song with then 2 years in a row, the molympics (on october 23 hehe), how they used to beg me to call my brother during class because they thought he was hilarious even having never met him, how i'd look up, and the whole class would be smiling at some inside joke they were playing on me, how they talked about their previous science teacher mr faust (to the point where there was a class rule that they could only say his name twice per day!), girl talk time (gtt) with the girls, and how the boys all wrote me goodbye letters when i told them i was moving and wouldn't be around their senior year. i saved those, and the letters from the girls as well in my "never ever ever throw away" box.
i clearly remember telling them last may that i'd be going to grad school and not returning to grace, and looked up from the letter i was reading from, to see a room full of teary eyes. i completely lost it, because they were (and still are) such a blessing in my life. not a day went by that i didn't laugh with that class, and not a day goes by now that i don't miss teaching. . i loved being their teacher, i miss seeing them and laughing with them every day, and i wish them all the best. so alli, kristyn, kristen, mel, sarah, steph, jess, ron, easton, nate, rick, if you happen upon this and read it, know that i have complete confidence that God will use you to do great things in this life...and i'll be cheering you on! i love you all.
and....tears....
Sunday, May 10, 2009
new books.
ugh. i just made a duplicate order on half.com, and now i am the proud owner (or soon-to-be) of "modern psychopathologies: a comprehensive christian approach." THANK GOODNESS. i am sure i will need both copies. i am so awesome. actually, do you ever have this type of experience: where at the very moment you press "place my order" or "send" etc, you realize "NOOOOO that's not what i want to do." i have, more often than i care to admit. and much more often than is convenient. love that.
anyway. in other news, i got a new planner, which is very exciting for me. i cannot get through my day without my planner. it's one of those things that i will actually turn around for if i forget it at home. anyhow, i spent most of my day subbing on friday transferring events and appointments from my old planner to my new planner. it was a big day, guys. a big day.
so i had a lovely trip up north for 2 days this weekend. mostly for mothers' day, but i also got to see some wonderful friends, who i miss dearly. [leisa, it was GREAT to see you and walk around st joe in the dark]. it was so nice to be home, but also good to be back in indy. this semester is going to be quite a ride, but lots of good experience so there's that.
i've nice and caffeinated right now, so i am going to harness the jitters and get some stuff done before i go to bed tonight. like, watching celebrity apprentice, unpacking, reading, and writing a paper that's due before my first psychopathology class. it will be real.
and finally, i passed a billboard today in central indiana: "we put the hospital in hospitality." that has GOT to be the WORST marketing idea, EVER. your thoughts?
anyway. in other news, i got a new planner, which is very exciting for me. i cannot get through my day without my planner. it's one of those things that i will actually turn around for if i forget it at home. anyhow, i spent most of my day subbing on friday transferring events and appointments from my old planner to my new planner. it was a big day, guys. a big day.
so i had a lovely trip up north for 2 days this weekend. mostly for mothers' day, but i also got to see some wonderful friends, who i miss dearly. [leisa, it was GREAT to see you and walk around st joe in the dark]. it was so nice to be home, but also good to be back in indy. this semester is going to be quite a ride, but lots of good experience so there's that.
i've nice and caffeinated right now, so i am going to harness the jitters and get some stuff done before i go to bed tonight. like, watching celebrity apprentice, unpacking, reading, and writing a paper that's due before my first psychopathology class. it will be real.
and finally, i passed a billboard today in central indiana: "we put the hospital in hospitality." that has GOT to be the WORST marketing idea, EVER. your thoughts?
Monday, May 4, 2009
gross negligence.
but really, would we expect anything else? i am so sorry, faithful readers and cyber sidekicks for not updating more during the lovely month of april. it was a rollercoaster ride, but i think things have calmed down and life is getting better. little by little. i do this every spring--get very impatient with life and feel like i need to make things happen rather than just let life happen. i have alluded to this before, so i'm going to stop there and give you the highlights of my last-few-weeks.
first of all, i survived the oneamericaindianapolis500festivalminimarathon2009. heck. yes. i also ran it in a personal best time, which was especially impressive to me because i felt rather unprepared, and i had eaten lots of junk food in the days prior. many of you know that i work out with my grandpa every thursday. he's kind of become a self-appointed coach, and he likes to tell me how fast (or slow) i'm going on any given thursday. usually the latter. as i already told you, he voiced his concern that i'd either kill myself or bring shame to the family name during the race, due to my lazy training. no fear, patriarch. i not only survived, i finished in 10009th place. how about THAT for upholding family honor?...win-win.
oooh, and then, i went to the original pancake house with the family for a post race celebration, where i ate a large percentage of the largest and most wonderful german pancake you could possible imagine. lemon and powdered sugar. i probably consumed whatever calorie deficit i had so carefully generated during the 13.1. was it worth it? absolutely it was. however, i hit the gym tonight, still pretty achy, but i have an appointment with a personal trainer in the morning. it was a free gimmick by a local gym, but it worked and i go in tomorrow, and i will hear all about how bad my balance is, how i dont' do enough strength training, how i do eat too much sugar, etc. but i'll rock their socks off in the endurance portion. and then i'll find out my body fat percentage. yowzers.
anyway, as you all may know, the whole swine flu mania has gotten slightly our of hand. especially since it doesn't seem that the symptoms are all that bad. but whatever, people are freaking out. so i sneezed twice in the starting corrals at the race and this big burly guy in front of me turned around and was like" you better watch it, they might cancel the race if they hear much more of that," he was only joking, you guys.
second of all, can i tell you how much i love the indianapolis zoo? a lot, that's how much. i went a few weeks ago with my friend kelly and we had all sorts of fun. i am now a proud zoo member as well, and i can bring a guest for free. so, if you're in town this summer, that is what we will be doing. going to the zoo. and hitting up the dolphin show. a good time will be had by all.
third, i had about 9 days off of school between spring and summer semester, and i've had lots of along time to think and read. i've spent a few days at the central branch of the library downtown. one of my all time favorite places in the city. you must go sometime. and if you especially like libraries, it's worth a trip downtown even if you're just passing through.
i'm looking forward to my summer classes--including practicum where i'll see real live clients. i thought i'd be scared, but i'm actually very excited and ready to go. i don't feel prepared in the least, but it's during these experiences that we learn the most. it will be an adventure.
t-minus one month till it could perhaps be warm enough to go to the beach, and dare i dream, stick my toe in lake michigan. i cannot describe to you the immense sadness i have when i think about this summer and being so far from the lake. i'll miss spending looooong days there with good people, attempting to play volleball, walking on the pier, running downtown, getting creeped out by creepy guy on the beach, and frequenting caffe tosi and downtown st. joe. i had it very very good the last 3 years. summertime in indy will be a new adventure and i hope to find some places that will come to mean as much to me as grand mere and the north pier, but for now, i'm sad that i'll miss out on summer life in sw michigan. (and can you believe this...it will be the first summer in 11 years that i don't work for calderwood farms. since 1998. whew.)
lately levi has been hanging outside on his patio swing and usually calls out "hi. what's your name," everytime he hears me leave our building. so i go and hang out with him sometimes when i have the time. we've gone on some walks the past few weeks. and it is utterly adorable. we talk about things like shivering, flipflops, outer space, rollerblades, and windchimes. it's a wide and eclectic base. he is absolutely precious.
and finally, beth was here for 4 days, and it was so good to just hang out and spend time with her. kind of like the old days because there was lots of coffee, several crossword puzzles, and a good deal of running involved. we also saw some indianapolis sights, and i can't imagine why she WOULDN'T want to pack up her life in DC and move here asap. can you? there are all sorts of things in indiana that need to be archived. for real.
taking a short jaunt north to the pleasant peninsula later this week for mothers day. then a couple more short trips later in may. i'll try to get back up there once or twice in june and once or twice in july to bask in the sun on the sandy shores of lake michigan. but other than that, i am looking forward to my summer in indy. i might be moving out of my apartment in august---there's a possibility of living wiht some girls in a house in a cute little part of town a few miles away from here. there are definite advantages to having my own place, but it's more expensive and more lonely than having roommates. i could use the money and company, so we'll see what happens there.
sooooo, i believe that about wraps up my life the last few weeks. there's more of course, this is the readers digest version. relevant. heartwarming. abridged. so now, a throwback to junior high. upon wrapping up a note:
n-e-wayzz
ttyl,
ttfn
lylas
jk
stay sweet
but really...
love to all and happy springtime :)
first of all, i survived the oneamericaindianapolis500festivalminimarathon2009. heck. yes. i also ran it in a personal best time, which was especially impressive to me because i felt rather unprepared, and i had eaten lots of junk food in the days prior. many of you know that i work out with my grandpa every thursday. he's kind of become a self-appointed coach, and he likes to tell me how fast (or slow) i'm going on any given thursday. usually the latter. as i already told you, he voiced his concern that i'd either kill myself or bring shame to the family name during the race, due to my lazy training. no fear, patriarch. i not only survived, i finished in 10009th place. how about THAT for upholding family honor?...win-win.
oooh, and then, i went to the original pancake house with the family for a post race celebration, where i ate a large percentage of the largest and most wonderful german pancake you could possible imagine. lemon and powdered sugar. i probably consumed whatever calorie deficit i had so carefully generated during the 13.1. was it worth it? absolutely it was. however, i hit the gym tonight, still pretty achy, but i have an appointment with a personal trainer in the morning. it was a free gimmick by a local gym, but it worked and i go in tomorrow, and i will hear all about how bad my balance is, how i dont' do enough strength training, how i do eat too much sugar, etc. but i'll rock their socks off in the endurance portion. and then i'll find out my body fat percentage. yowzers.
anyway, as you all may know, the whole swine flu mania has gotten slightly our of hand. especially since it doesn't seem that the symptoms are all that bad. but whatever, people are freaking out. so i sneezed twice in the starting corrals at the race and this big burly guy in front of me turned around and was like" you better watch it, they might cancel the race if they hear much more of that," he was only joking, you guys.
second of all, can i tell you how much i love the indianapolis zoo? a lot, that's how much. i went a few weeks ago with my friend kelly and we had all sorts of fun. i am now a proud zoo member as well, and i can bring a guest for free. so, if you're in town this summer, that is what we will be doing. going to the zoo. and hitting up the dolphin show. a good time will be had by all.
third, i had about 9 days off of school between spring and summer semester, and i've had lots of along time to think and read. i've spent a few days at the central branch of the library downtown. one of my all time favorite places in the city. you must go sometime. and if you especially like libraries, it's worth a trip downtown even if you're just passing through.
i'm looking forward to my summer classes--including practicum where i'll see real live clients. i thought i'd be scared, but i'm actually very excited and ready to go. i don't feel prepared in the least, but it's during these experiences that we learn the most. it will be an adventure.
t-minus one month till it could perhaps be warm enough to go to the beach, and dare i dream, stick my toe in lake michigan. i cannot describe to you the immense sadness i have when i think about this summer and being so far from the lake. i'll miss spending looooong days there with good people, attempting to play volleball, walking on the pier, running downtown, getting creeped out by creepy guy on the beach, and frequenting caffe tosi and downtown st. joe. i had it very very good the last 3 years. summertime in indy will be a new adventure and i hope to find some places that will come to mean as much to me as grand mere and the north pier, but for now, i'm sad that i'll miss out on summer life in sw michigan. (and can you believe this...it will be the first summer in 11 years that i don't work for calderwood farms. since 1998. whew.)
lately levi has been hanging outside on his patio swing and usually calls out "hi. what's your name," everytime he hears me leave our building. so i go and hang out with him sometimes when i have the time. we've gone on some walks the past few weeks. and it is utterly adorable. we talk about things like shivering, flipflops, outer space, rollerblades, and windchimes. it's a wide and eclectic base. he is absolutely precious.
and finally, beth was here for 4 days, and it was so good to just hang out and spend time with her. kind of like the old days because there was lots of coffee, several crossword puzzles, and a good deal of running involved. we also saw some indianapolis sights, and i can't imagine why she WOULDN'T want to pack up her life in DC and move here asap. can you? there are all sorts of things in indiana that need to be archived. for real.
taking a short jaunt north to the pleasant peninsula later this week for mothers day. then a couple more short trips later in may. i'll try to get back up there once or twice in june and once or twice in july to bask in the sun on the sandy shores of lake michigan. but other than that, i am looking forward to my summer in indy. i might be moving out of my apartment in august---there's a possibility of living wiht some girls in a house in a cute little part of town a few miles away from here. there are definite advantages to having my own place, but it's more expensive and more lonely than having roommates. i could use the money and company, so we'll see what happens there.
sooooo, i believe that about wraps up my life the last few weeks. there's more of course, this is the readers digest version. relevant. heartwarming. abridged. so now, a throwback to junior high. upon wrapping up a note:
n-e-wayzz
ttyl,
ttfn
lylas
jk
stay sweet
but really...
love to all and happy springtime :)
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